Before you upload, you need to understand what we’re talking about.
You are reading this - and at the same time a voice sounds. He comments. Evaluates. Plans. Remembers something. Worried. Waiting.
This voice never shuts up. Even at night - in dreams - he continues.
You call him "I". You think that's who you are.
But what if that's not the case? What if it's only model you - collected from everything that you have ever thought about yourself?
Today we will explore this model. All her layers. Everything that is in it.
Buddhism · Anatta (not-Self). Buddha taught: there is no fixed, permanent Self. What we call ourselves is flow feelings and thoughts. Suffering arises when we cling to this flow as "I".
Advaita Vedanta · Atman and Brahman. Shankara: the individual Self (Atman) is not a separate entity, but a manifestation of a single consciousness (Brahman). "Aham Brahmasmi" - I am Brahman.
Taoism. Lao Tzu: “Knowing others is wisdom. Knowing yourself is enlightenment.“The True Self is revealed when the active ego becomes silent.
Descartes · Cogito ergo sum · 1637. “I think, therefore I exist”. Descartes sought what cannot be doubted. Found the doubt itself. But who is this “one who doubts” - he did not answer this question.
Jung · Ego and Self. Jung divided the Ego (what we consciously consider ourselves to be) and the Self (the whole personality, including the unconscious). Most live in the Ego and think that this is all.
Sartre · “Existence precedes essence.” A person is not born with a ready-made self. He creates himself through elections - every day. I am a project.
Meneghetti · Ontopsychology. Separated the "deviation monitor" (social program) and the ontic principle (authentic nature). Most live according to someone else's program, taking it for themselves.
When you do nothing, your brain doesn't rest. He thinks actively about yourself: about the past, about the future, about what people will say.
This network consumes 20% of all brain energy. She generates internal dialogue. It creates a feeling of continuous Self.
When a person enters meditation or stops internal dialogue - DMN activity falls sharply.
And here's what's interesting: at this moment people do not cease to exist. They feel - something remains. This “something” is the subject of our research.
Six angles for one system - like X-ray, MRI and ultrasound for one organ.
Conscious · Implicit · Social · Historical · Projective · Existential.
Six uploads. One analysis. One book I MENTAL.
Close your eyes.
Right now - what do you think you are?
Don't think right. Just feel what comes up.
What do you call "I"?
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You just talked about the most difficult question. Don't rush to conclusions.
Close your eyes. Feel it. What is left after these words?
You just tried to describe me as a whole. It's hard - because I'm not alone. This several layers, which work simultaneously, but in different ways.
Conscious Self - what you think you are.
Implicit Self - the way you actually work.
Social Self - the way you are to others.
Historical Self - what are you made of?
Projective Self - where are you going?
Existential Self — what it all stands on.
Six uploads. One analysis. Book I MENTAL. Each I is a different angle on one system. Together they give a complete picture.
Declaration. What you present to the world.
The conscious self is tip of the iceberg. Something you can put into words.
“I am a father”, “I am a programmer”, “I am a person who does not lie”. It's yours version of myself.
The Conscious Self is not “fake”. It incomplete. Underwater there are five more layers.
I-self - I as a subject. The one who experiences, observes, thinks.
Me-self - I'm like an object. The way you see and describe yourself.
The conscious self is Me-self. The image of oneself as an object of introspection.
Real Me - who you are. Ideal Self - who should be.
Distance between them = anxiety.
When they are too far away, you are constantly dissatisfied with yourself. When you are close, you are in agreement with yourself.
Identity is narrative. Not a list of facts, but a coherent story.
When you unload the Conscious Self, you unload your narrative. The way you tell yourself your life.
The narrative can be heard. Hear pauses. Hear what's repeated. Hear what you're doing.
Close your eyes.
Who do you think you are - right now?
Don't think. Just feel what comes up.
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Speak on the issues that catch your attention.
You were just talking about yourself - publicly to yourself. It's different than thinking to yourself.
Close your eyes. Feel what remains in your body after these words. Don't analyze - just notice.
What's going on underneath the words?
Autopilot. Everything that controls you is below consciousness.
The implicit self is autopilot. Habits, reactions, patterns. Everything that turns on before you can think about it.
"I don't know why I did this" - this is it. It knows. It just doesn't work with words.
The signal inside travels faster than awareness. Stimulus → reaction occurs before the head formulates a thought.
System 1 - fast, automatic. The body already knows.
System 2 - slow, conscious. No head yet.
200 milliseconds against 2 seconds - 10 times faster. Most “decisions” are made before you.
Shadow - what we reject in ourselves. What does not fit into the Conscious Self.
It's not going anywhere. He goes into the shadows and controls us from there.
What you judge most strongly in others is often what you have not recognized in yourself.
Not like a bright light. How deja vu - “The same thing again, and I’m going there again.”
Do you recognize yourself in these phrases?? The implicit appears - you just point it out.
Close your eyes.
What do you do again and again - without deciding to do?
Just let it come out.
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Speak on the issues that catch your attention.
Some of this came from within - you didn't plan it. That's good.
Close your eyes. Feel the air on your skin. This body. It's with you.
Who you are to others.
Presenter: “Stay where you are sitting.. Eyes open. Look at something still. Notice that you are sitting. that you have weight. That the chair holds this weight.”
Presenter: “Close your eyes.. Just notice your breath - it knows how. Feel your hands. Feet on the floor. The floor is hard."
Host: “Don’t fight thoughts. Just don't continue. The thought came - they noticed - did not follow it. You are the one who notices.”
Presenter: “Into the whole body. Not to one point. All at once - without focus. Let your attention dissolve. You are already where you need to be.”
Host: “Come back slowly.. Open your eyes when you're ready. You've just been in silence. This is what everything that comes next grows from.. This is the first entry into the Nothing state—the entry point into mind control.”
More than one person - a repertoire.
With colleagues, with mom, with a friend at three in the morning - different versions.
It's not fake. This is an adaptation. Each version is real, just chosen by context.
The question is where are the boundaries?. Which version is your “home”?? How rare? Where are you not you - but someone who is expected of you?
Front stage - what we show. Gestures, voice, demeanor.
Back stage — who are we when there is no audience. Here you can relax your face.
Every social situation is a stage. The question is how tired you get from playing.
Person - mask. It is necessary. Without it you cannot live among people.
Dangerous when fuses with the face. When you yourself don’t know where you are and where the role is.
“I no longer remember what I really love” - this is a break with oneself through the Persona.
Do you recognize yourself in these phrases?? This is the Social Self at work.
Close your eyes.
Who are you when you're alone? - when there is no need to play a role?
Just feel it.
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Speak on the issues that catch your attention.
You just looked at yourself through different contexts. It might be weird - see, how many versions do you keep at the same time?. Exhale. Close your eyes. Feel yourself here - without an audience, without a role.
What are you made of?
The past is not “back there”. It lives in the body right now.
In reactions, in what you trust, in what you fear for no apparent reason.
The historical self is narrative. The story you tell yourself about how you became who you are today.
This is not a biography. This sample: what remains, what is forgotten, what continues to this day.
Early relationships with those who raised you create internal working models.
They are reproduced in every significant way—over and over again.. With partners, friends, children, with yourself.
The roots go deeper than we remember. And they hold everything above.
Redemption narrative: bad → good. Pain becomes strength.
Narrative of contagion: good → bad. “It always ends, don’t wait.”
The type of narrative determines psychological health. Which one is yours?
what is your narrative?
You recognize yourself? Name something from the past that lives in you now.
Close your eyes.
What from the past lives in you right now?
Don't remember - just let it come.
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Speak on the issues that catch your attention.
You were just in the past. It's physical - not only mentally. The body partially goes there. Come back here. The past is there. Are you here.
Where are you looking?
Host: “We’re back in Nothing again. Eyes open. Find a fixed point. Notice: you are sitting. Chair holds. The body is here."
Presenter: “Close your eyes.. Breath knows itself. Just notice. Hands. Feet on the floor. The floor is hard."
Host: “Don’t fight. Just don't continue. The thought came - they noticed - they didn’t go. You are the one who notices. This is Nothing."
Presenter: “Into the whole body. No focus. Back, stomach, arms, legs - all at once. Attention dissolves. This is the slowest part of the training.”
Host: “Come back slowly.. Open your eyes when you're ready. Next - Projective Self. Where are you looking?"
Three looks that you wear.
Wishful - what you want to be. Expected - what I should be according to other people's standards. Feared - what you are afraid of turning out to be.
They are not "plans". This imagesthat pull or push.
Wherever your gaze is directed, that’s where you go.. Even when you think you're standing.
Pair desired + feared = a powerful motivator.
If the feared dominates - you're moving from something, not к something.
Living from fear is different than living from a dream. Recognizable from the outside.
That's why we betray the future self - we put it off, we sabotage it.
That “you in 5 years” for which you should get up earlier today - the brain sees it like a stranger.
The more clearly you can imagine yourself tomorrow, the less you betray yourself today.
Do you recognize yourself in these phrases?? Your image of the future may not be yours.
Close your eyes.
Where do you see yourself in 10 years?
Don't think - just let the image appear.
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Speak on the issues that catch your attention.
The future is a place where both the greatest desire and the greatest fear live. You just touched both. Exhale. Close your eyes. You are in the present - not there. Just stay here.
What does it all stand on?
Four givens: Death · Freedom · Isolation · Meaning.
Everyone has them. You can't get rid of them. You can only look into them - or displace.
This foundation, on which all other layers stand. When something collapses from above, this foundation remains.
People, receiving limb, - less anxious, more authentic.
People, repressing death, - live according to other people's scenarios. They put off their “later”.
“Later” is not endless.
A person endures any WHAT - if there is FOR WHAT.
The point is not looking for - He is being created. This is your act.
These places are for everyone. Many people just don't go there.
Close your eyes.
Why are you living? - your answer is not correct.
Don't think. Just let what is come.
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Speak on the issues that catch your attention.
You've gone through all six layers. Don't do anything about it right now. Just sit. Close your eyes. Breathe slowly. Let everything that has risen - it will just be.
AI analyzes all six layers together. Finds patterns, contradictions, what was said directly and what was said between the lines.
Book I MENTAL - within 48 hours.
If this is a model, then who is watching her?
The one who observes does not speak. He just present.
You asked yourself six layers of questions and heard your voice.
The main thing has already happened.
The recording on the voice recorder has been preserved. The main thing is what you said out loud
something I haven’t articulated before.
When you're ready, the next block is waiting.